My mom has always insisted that I have had a lucky star. That when all things turn to shit and I really, really, really need to have something fall my way - it does. Every single time.
My mother calls it luck, but it was really my effort. I really work well under pressure, well at least i used to. Anyway I remeber in college I would find myself in some kind of pickel and I would need this miraculous test score to save my GPA or standing at the school or somethig like that. I would get these masssive butterflies in my tummy (just like now) and fucking buckel down and study and work and get the shit done. I had a couple of tests that I had to nail - like 90 something and I had never gotten a 90 before, but for that test....90.
I think that that adreniline is in my now - its the same exact fucking feeling. BUT the problem is, is that I don't ahve complete control. I have employees that I have to rely on, I can't do it all myself.
Regardless. I do believe that my lucky star will get me through this shit storm. 2009 baby. Shit storm.
You know I actually worry about the country and environment now..I worry about fucking everything now. I used to worry only about Flyers hockey - now i worry about everything. I ama actually concerned about the fucking budget. Who gives a FUCK. I just need to worry about my books, my business, and my hockey team....and my girlfriend.
I like this blog thing.
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